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When I..When I gaze into your eyes
It relieves all stress and worries
When i look upon your smile
It fills me full of hope
When i see your face
I cannot help but feel
Feel nothing but happiness
To be a part of your life
I want to be next to you
For as long as we both live
Because i love you
With all my heart and soul
You are always there for me
And the only one i want to be
You cheer up my life
And never fail to care
In this world full of of hate
You bring laughter and joy
You never cease to amaze me
My beautiful baby girl
Be it friends or more
One thing is certain
And that is how i feel about you.
one day, i will triumphThese little battles,
I fight every day:
me against the world,
me against myself.
Failure is not an option.
Suicide or survival?
Addicted or alive?
Relapse or redemption?
This is the choice
I face every day.
I don't always make the right decisions.
when I do,
these small victories,
they mean the world to me.
They remind me
that I am strong,
that if I can overcome
I can do anything
I put my mind to.
October 23, 2012
the notebookI flipped open the top flap that protected all of my thoughts and secret feelings from prying eyes and continued through the notebook until I came to a blank page, skimming my old works while I searched. It's a funny thing, looking back at where you've been mentally, emotionally, and wondering at how you made it through those dark days, how you can continue to survive. When I ponder those times, I remember my 7th grade English/Art teacher and the difference she made to me, personally, and how the knowledge that she knew who I was, really, helped me through one of the most trying times of my life at that point.
It was Thursday, two days after I had showed Mrs. B. the small collection of loose poems I had not so much written as poured my soul into over the past few weeks, maybe months. Time had begun to blur and all of my attention was concentrated solely on living through each, individual day, one at a time. However, the message poorly coded in my morbid words remained ever present in t
love conquers allMaking connections
I never knew existed,
Holding tight to thoughts
I never knew we shared.
How much of him is left in me?
I thought I'd never know.
The old assertions of a young man,
reflected in a younger woman
he didn't get to see mature.
The same blood runs through my veins
that, long ago, dried up in his.
We live on in the lives we touch
and remain forever in their hearts.
November 27, 2012
Silence: The Most Powerful ToolSilence: The Most Powerful Tool
Silence is the best tool for hiding emotions.
When I stay quiet I don't let you know
just how much your actions hurt me.
The way I want to cry when you reject my touch
or when you act like you don't even know me.
All it would take to know how I feel would
be one single glance into my sorrowful eyes.
I loved you so much, thought it was enough.
But I'm learning now it was just
another lesson on what to do in life.
So I hide behind the silent mask
and pretend your cruel words
don't hurt in anyway when
inside it feels like a thousand
razor sharp knives are cutting my heart and soul.
Why Do I Bother?Why Do I Bother?
Why do I keep trying
when it always ends the same?
Why should I keep trying to please
when I'll just never be enough?
Maybe I should just go and
be what everyone already thinks I am.
Nothing more then a good time
or just one fun night
before I get old and
get thrown away just for
not being exactly what you
thought I should be.
Thoughts in the SkyThoughts in the Sky
Sitting in an open field reading
a good book and letting my mind wander,
seeing my thoughts float away
like kites floating on the wind.
Dark thoughts and light thoughts
mingle in the sky and spin and twirl
like a perfectly matched couple
dancing on the breeze.
Happy thoughts and sad thoughts
take a turn around the sky,
making polite conversation.
All my thoughts meet and dance
in the ballroom on the clouds.
The UnforgivenThe Unforgiven
Left alone in a lazy wood.
Alone, forgotten but not forgiven.
I sit against a huge oak tree
looking back over my lonely life.
I look over the friends I made and lost.
The love that left me behind.
He ment the world to me
and I was just a speck of dirt to him.
We loved and left then loved again.
He went away to be a soldier,
promising to return to me.
So I waited and waited
underneath this tree
for the day my only love would return to me.
Then the letter came to me one day
written in vibrant red
telling me my lover died
and left me alone beneath this sad oak tree.
Here I wait for him to come back
and take me with him so we can be together
just him and me for eternity.
Did I Matter?Did I Matter?
It never mattered to you did it?
What I thought or felt?
You pushed me away to punish me
for loving you too much.
I fell for you and you threw me away.
I tried to do anything I could
to try to make you happy but nothing worked.
You continued to hate me
and I never stopped loving you.
Immortal LoveImmortal Love
Time and time we come together
but it can never last forever.
Time comes and takes it away
but we come back to love another day.
When our love is cut short by time
we return as new people in a new time.
We always find one another, never go astray
we find one another in the teeming fray.
I love you and you love me
forever together we two will be.
Web of Emotionsi am entangled in your web
Struggling in the threads that you spun
Full of lies and deceit
Trying to free myself from the pain
That is sure to come.
Like a Black Widow
So beautiful but deadly
A little thing causing so much pain
Enough to make me wish
Wish that i was dead.
You mean so much to me
Yet i seem to mean so little
Just like a toy of yours
To play with when you feel like it.
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